02 February 2007

Trudging Along

I'm basically just waiting for the sting to go away.

Yesterday's post was extremely hard to write and finish. I had to keep stopping because I kept crying.

Last night I was getting into my shower and noticed a bite mark from Tuesday night and, of course, broke down again.

And I know it's going to get worse before it gets better.

Next week's going to be hard not seeing him, and not because we're busy.

And then the week after when the orgy comes and I think of all the fun I'm missing and who takes my place next to him at the end of the night.

Ugh, see there I go again with the tears. I didn't know one person could cry this much.


2 comments:

Josh said...

*hug*

We ddin't get much of a chance to talk at the last party, but you and Callie and I could get together for dinner at some point if you'd like. I'm sorry this is tough for you. I'd be happy to be a sympahetic ear.

George said...

Be well and be happy Avah. You will survive and come out of this a better person. It may look bleak but it won't last honey.