21 October 2006


This was in my horoscope today: Sometimes quitting is just understanding your capabilities and acting accordingly.

I thought it was so appropriate after deciding to withdraw from classes for the semester.

I've never been good at school. Doing homework and studying was always the biggest chore, and often times just didn't get done. And it's been this way since I was in 1st grade.

I don't know what posessed me to take classes that required 200-300 pages of reading a week!

And then my depression hit, and I knew I was in for trouble.

So, after much consideration, talking, and even crying, I decided it was best to drop 3 of my 4 classes.

All I'm left with is my art history class, the only one I haven't fallen behind in.

So now I have all this free time. I'm not sure how exactly I'll fill it all. I can spend so much time on my art now. And I'm thinking of taking up knitting or crocheting to make my Christmas presents. Maybe I can have some more sex too. Cause once a week isn't quite enough.


Anonymous said...

But is it really school thats causing your depression? I think most people would agree having endless amounts of time to think about how unhappy you are was never very good for anyone's depression.

Avah said...

Actually, school didn't cause my depression. It got very hard to do because of my depression.

And I'm usually not thinking about how unhappy I am during the day, it's more often at night.

So you see, whether I have class doesn't really affect those thoughts too much.

Lizzie said...

Hmm, sounds familiar.. I'm sure it was a very difficult decision to make (at least it was for me when I did it last year, but it sounds like you probably made the right decision.. glad to hear you're keeping with the class you like, though! Hopefully you'll be able to find some interesting things to do during the day now!

Alice said...

I understand how hard it is to get things done while depressed. I would encourage you to stay busy, in my experience it helps with the depression.

Jewelry making might be a fun hobby, lord knows it helped fund a year of xmas presents for me.